Dear whoever might be reading this,
I’ve always wanted a proper blog. And if I’m being honest, the truth is that I’ve always wanted a proper brand. I think, or like to think, that’s the Capricorn in me. Normally my sea-goat vibes manifest in stubbornness, depression, and a pragmatism I’m quite proud of. However, in this one area of my life, the ambition and status-seeking comes through with a strength that always surprises me, considering I’m not otherwise a very ambitious person.
I’ve started a ridiculous number of blogs in my adult life. I probably have a dozen abandoned attempts on Tumblr, and another half dozen right here on WordPress. I start them in a moment of unabashed enthusiasm, spend hours making them look cute and functional, and then immediately forget they exist within a week of their inception. They go nowhere, accrue no interest from outside parties, and make no great impression in my life or anyone else’s. They are, in a word, lame.
I don’t know if this blog will face the same fate. If it will become yet another entry in a long line of failed attempts at a consistent, meaningful, online presence. But what I do know is that I’ve attempted to approach this blog differently than the others that came before.
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about my interests. And not just the things in which my interest is consistent, but shallow (like writing, which I adore but do very infrequently and without much seriousness), but rather the interests I have that are sustained and extensive. I’ve been thinking about what interests I have that excite me and energize me. Which ones I engage in frequently, whether that be through conversation, personal reading, or personal writing. As I thought, certain things became clear.
I am passionate about paganism, especially the practice of tarot. I love reading about it. I love doing readings (for myself and others). I love collecting decks, creating spreads, and talking about tarot with others who share that same love. I’m also growing my sense of spirituality and my relationship to nature through other means like astrology and ritual work. If I’m going to blog, paganism needs to be a big part of it.
I’m also passionate about equity and social justice work. This passion has informed much of my life for the last five years. I studied media through a postcolonial-feminist lens for two years in grad school (the inspiration for my blog name here), and now I work in education for an equity-heavy public charter school organization where I’m an active member of our site’s Equity Working Group. I don’t think I can blog if this kind of work doesn’t make an appearance as well.
And finally, as I mentioned above, I’m an educator. I teach second and third grade, and this work is all-consuming, exhausting, and deeply meaningful to me. My life is dominated by my work, particularly the way my work is benefited by social justice. And I’m learning as I get farther into this career, that I have thoughts and perspectives that warrant further discussion and development. Blogging seems like a pretty apt way to do just that.
More importantly, I’m incredibly excited to see how these three subjects can be interwoven. So much conversation in the online spirituality world is centered on privilege, access, and appropriation, and it’s easy to see why. Similarly, my job in education is heavily filtered through the prism of social justice. And ultimately, I think the goal of helping my students grow into critical thinkers who are curious about the world around them and excited to help it improve can start with simply teaching kids to tap into the energy of the natural world around them, and to understand that every living thing on this planet is important. That they all matter, and deserve respect.
So, what will it look like to further explore the intersections of these topics? What will it feel like for me to find the connecting threads between them? How could this positively impact my work as a developing pagan and a developing teacher? I have no idea! And I’m happy to find out.
I pulled some cards for the future of the blog. They’re in the picture posted up top. I think I pulled some pleasantly prophetic cards. The Queen of Swords, a figure who has seen some shit and come through the other side of it. Whose pain is now transmuted into wisdom. Then, of course, we have the Magician. The resourceful figure who uses the tools around them to manifest something bigger. Who works within that liminal space between spirit and earth. And finally, the Knight of Pentacles, a card of hard work and determination. A figure still in their youth, who doesn’t have it anywhere near figured out, but who’s ready to put in the work anyway.
I think all of these cards speak to the same energy. The same mission of growth through effort and reflection. As someone in the midst of her Saturn return and a huge career change, I can say with confidence that this has been a theme for me over the last couple of years. And I think this a very fitting message for the blog itself. Because what is the point of this space if it isn’t used for growth through effort and reflection?
So, if you feel drawn to these topics (or interested, as I am, to discover all the ways they’re interconnected) then please join me on this journey. I can’t promise to post frequently or consistently, but I can promise that when I do, I’ll be as thoughtful and purposeful as I can manage! Let’s see where it goes….
❤ amina (the postcolonial pagan)